from a girl whom i'll camp with on 4-6th jan. this is awesome.

when i woke up this morning, i gave thanks for the good rest i had yesterday night, but soon after, i was overwhelmed by fear again, i was afraid i won't get to sleep tonight again. As usual, i worried about it for one whole day, though at times i tried to reject those thoughts. i wasn't worrying abt my papers at all. i cried again at night after dinner, until i finally settled down and prayed to Him again. It was then when God reminded me that it won't be just one victorious night, but many more victorious nights to come. i prayed for God to remove any fears permanently, not just today and tomorrow, but forever after, i prayed and asked God to protect me from any deception that the enemies might implant in me. deceptive thoughts such as " this is going to be long term" or " you will fall into depression if this continues" or " oh nooo, God is only gonna grant me one day of peace and no more" or " i won't be able to sleep tonight"... i prayed that God would keep reminding me of His grace, His goodness and His mercies. I prayed that i would remember His goodness more that i remember the works of the devil. i declared victory over all these fears and insomnia cos Jesus has won the war for me on the cross. and i prayed that even as the night comes and as a new day starts tomorrow, i won't fall into deception and entertain those negative thoughts again, instead, i will believe and cling on to God's promises as i open my eyes each day. I believe that as i learn to overcome this, God will strengthen me in my faith, and i would be able to share my testimony with others in the future.

Proverbs 3: 24-26 " When you lie down, you will not be afraid; yes, you will lie down and your sleep will be sweet. Do not be afraid of sudden terror when it comes; For the Lord will be your confidence , and will keep your foot from being caught."

Psalms 4:8 " I will both lie down in peace and sleep; for You alone, o Lord, make me dwell in safety."